11th day :3// 11th dimension

I'll just nod, I've never been so good at shaking hands.

July 31st,2010.

11 days passed my 17 year old life by, 354 days 'til I turn 18.

We went shopping, last night was awful, my mom yelled at me for some stupid ass reason...ANYWAY... we went shopping I found where I can buy an ukulele, since I've been wanting to buy one for a month now...I bought two pairs of awesome vans, I bought enrique bunbury's 'las consecuencias', and earphones, since the other ones kinda died. I saw some ray bans and I fell for them, but we had to come back, since we're soo tired, my brother wanted to buy some shoes but he had not enough money, si once we got here, he told my dad, and they went to get his shoes, I wanted to go, so I could buy my glasses, but they said it would be better if I stayed, Chris, my cousin brough a puppy and I'm in love with her, she's sleeping in my neck right now, and I feel bad for the little dog, since I know Lucy will treat her like a stuffed animal, I listened to Bunbury's CD and it's A W E S O M E just like him. haven't heard of my french crush :/ anyway I'm not really worried about that, I'm so in love with this puppy that I'm going to take a pic, and then upload it, I hope they'll give her a cute name, just 'cause she deserves it, she's neverending cute. EPIC CUTENESS♥!!

10th day ;D// 10th avenue, freeze out!

10 days since I turned 17, 355 days left to become legal.

OMG I'm so excited...we went to tonala, not much fun...BUUUUUUUT! we went iceskating and I met a CUTIE! he's french, he's blond, he's cute, blue eyes, HE'S FRENCH, omg I fell in love with him, we talked, he gave me his email adress, and when we said goodbye he kissed my cheeks TWICE...MAN! I'm going to marry him, well let's see LOL.

And... as I thought...this journal just keeps getting shorter as days go by...

9th day ;D// grade 9

July 29th, 2010.

9th day as a 17 year old ;D, 356 days to become legal.

so...pretty boring day... I found out Bunbury's coming to guadalajara next october, but I'm not going to be able to come and see him, turned off ): I hope we'll get to do something fun tomorrow.

eight day :D// 8th world wonder

July 28, 2010

8 days of good 17 year old life, 357 days to become legal.

We got back to Guadalajara and I'm really really tired, BUT now I'm obsessed with Enrique Bunbury, I was watching a concert while we got here and it was A W E S O M E.
miss home already, tomorrow morning I'll try to see when is he coming to mexico, and try to see if I'm going to be able to come and see him.

Seventh day :D// 7 bridges road

july 27th,2010

seventh day as 17 year old ;D 358 days to become legal.

My mom went to the hospital and we went to ripley's museum,it was pretty fun, I'm not gona lie, but I kinda feel bad 'cause my mom looks so tired...anyway...tomorrow we're leaving back to guadalajara, this hotel is fucking boring...the best thing around is to watch tv or listen to music.

sixth day// Girl 6

July 26th, 2010

Day number six of 17 ;D, 359 days to become legal.

Today we got to Mexico city, I fell asleep most of the time we were on the bus, so nothing too exciting happened, I like the hotel, it's pretty nice, but pretty boring as well...Tomorrow my mom's going to the hospital for some medical study, so I'm not hoping for anything too god to happen tomorrow.Kinda tired so I'd better go to bed.

Todo es insignificante, nada es tán preocupante.

Llegó la hora de hablar
No podemos posponerlo un segundo más
Hablaremos de todos los defectos,
Como también de las pasiones
Hablaremos de que esto no tiene que ver contigo ni conmigo

De las cosas que tenemos que hablar
De las cosas que queremos evitar
La platica profunda y un tanto vaga
La platica que no nos lleva a nada
La frase que no queremos escuchar cada día más cercana

No puedo soportar ver la distancia que hay entre tus brazos y los míos
No soporto ver en tus ojos y no ser capaz de ver siquiera el día siguiente
Me cansé de la monotonía de nuestra vida juntos
Me fatiga 'platicar' contigo sabiendo que no nos llevará a ningún lado
Sabiendo que nuestras mentes no están conectadas con nuestros cuerpos

Llegó la hora de hablar
Pero hablar enserio
Con nuestras mentes conectadas con nuestros cuerpos
De los secretos más oscuros
De las verdades más duras de aceptar
De que juntos ya no podemos estar.

Fifth day :D// 5 minutes alone.

July 25, 2010.

Five days since I turned 17. 360 days to become legal.

So, I got to guadalajara today, and I'm leaving to mexico city tomorrow morning, the trip was pretty boring as I expected it to be, tried to watch some movies, but my mom's music was just too loud, so I couldn't focus on the movie, it's not that bad though, I've always secretly had some love for the music she listens to, I mean... I know that someday when she's not around anymore I'll remember those songs, and I'll remember the roadtrips with her and Paul, to be honest I'm too tired to think about what to write right now, I need some rest, I hope I'll get a chance to write tomorrow, 'cause I really don't know if I'll get to take my lap with me or not, I'll have to wake up real early in the morning, so for now, I'll have to go.

I'm afraid that this journal is becoming just dull.

All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.

Fourth Day :D// Free Four

July 24, 2010.

My fourth day as a 17 year old badass nah jk. just as a 17 year old.361 days to become legal.

Well today was kind of a rollercoaster of emotions, it was hard 'cause everyone yelled at me, and as much as that pisses me off, I had to explode, needless to say Paul is still upset though that happened around the noon...and now it's around midnight...anyway, tomorrow I'm leaving to guadalajara, and my plan is to watch movies the whole ride,I'm taking the clockwork orange with me, trainspotting, The Shining, Dracula, The Marine, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, and harry potter 5, I hope it won't be so boring the trip that way... I guess I'll just have to leave since I need to get up real early tomorrow morning so we can make it on time to guadalajara, I just hope everything turns out cool and hope that we'll be back real soon and well, I hope tomorrow's entry will be a little longer, since I might have a lot to talk about the trip.

Third day :D // 3rd stone from the sun

July 23rd, 2010.

362 days to become legal.

Well, today I wasn't expecting it to be a huge day but it was something, I had fun my way, I had my life back, my old acoustic guitar my keyboard, my portable DVD, man did I miss those things :'D I danced with myself, I LOOOVE DANCING WITH MYSELF it's like the greatest feeling I've ever known, that, and singing out loud but like, really really loud, watched across the universe and remembered why I loved that movie way too much, damn I love the beatles, I hope I'll get to see ringo or paul someday, I fear this journal is getting shorter with everyday that passes me by. Tomorrow my stepbrother's coming over, so we can leave sunday early morning, I'm kinda... nervous? I don't want to go it's such a bore, I know I'll get to go somewhere else other than forum or the movies, so I guess is not that bad, vacations are slipping through my fingers and I wished I could have some more time off. I'm drowsy so I think I'll better GTFO. there's nothing much to say, I only hope this journal won't die in less than a year.

BTW yesterday I forgot to mention that I was reading about famous last words, and I asked some people which would be their last words, some of them were funny, some of them were just cool, but mine would be something like: 'I've waited my whole life to tell you this...I...*dies* maybe in a year they will be different.Now I will GTFO.

Second day :D // Love me two times

July 22nd, 2010.

Today was my 2nd day of being a 17 year old - 363 days 'til I become legal.

Today I didn't do much, except for the simple things like wash clothes, clean my room ,etc. I'm leaving to guadalajara this sunday with my mom, my stepdad and my stepbrother, and then, I'll leave to Mexico city on monday, let's just hope I'll get to see monday's night RAW, last night I watched this girl who's nickame is 'jessi slaughter' and I don't understand how can 11 year old be so dumb, and obnoxious, but I won't talk about her, I'm doing this to talk about me, to understand myself a little better, to know I'm not wasting my time, I'm living every single day, maybe nothing impresive happened, but heck I'm alive, there's no reason why this day shouldn't be the best I've ever had, as I keep writing a million things are going through my mind, like: 'damn I'm 17, next year I'll be an adult' and to be honest I'm kinda afraid of growing up, I'm facing that my life is not coming back, and I have to do something so it will be worth it, but from now on, I'll live on today, tomorrow will come and will bring its todays within, and I'll live them, and I'll remember the yesterdays but won't look back in anyway.

That's all folks!!

First day :D // One Word.

July 21st, 2010.

The first day of my 17 years old life, for the mexicans, 364 days left to become legal.

I had a great time, having lunch with my friends, and playing at playtime, and I truly believe that everything I want and everything I need is coming into place, I found the right guy, at least the one I need right now, I must admit I was a bit confused, but now I know that there's no one who can make me feel as special as he does, he might not be the perfect man, but nobody's perfect, and maybe that's what I love the most about him,I really hope this 'journal' lasts for the whole year, since, as everybody who knows me will probably guess, I tend to let things unfinished,but I'll try as hard as I possibly can to finish the whole year with this journal, I'm also planing on taking a pic everyday, and then, by the end of the year I can see how much I've changed, and, btw... the whole purpose of this 'journal' is to help me remember everything that happened everyday for at least a year. I'm running out of things to write, but I'll try to remember the most about this day, it didn't hit me 'til 12 am (when the day was over) that it was MY birthday, it feels kinda sad 'cause I didn't feel like it was really my day, and when I realized it, the day had gone, I'm not saying I regret it 'cause I don't, I'm in love, with me, with music, with french, with everything that surrounds me, with my boyfriend, with my friends, with my family, with the birds, and the sun... with EVERYTHING, I wished everyday I could see the good side of everything, I wished I could really learn how to live the moment and stop thinking about tomorrow, but hey, I'm just 17 years old, I've got a whole life to go through, a whole load of friends and people who care about me and love me to support me, guess that's all for today. ♥

A conversation in my head with myself.

-Fuck off man.
-What happened?
-It's just you...
-What did I do?
-I just don't like your fucking attitude it's pissing me off
-What? is it wrong for me to bring you flowers?
-Yes.I mean no, I just don't like it,I mean I do. you make me feel special, I don't want you to make me feel special, I want to know I'm special by just being with you.